brn2bthn

I got this job right out of college (I didn’t go to college until I was in my 20’s because I had my daughter when I was 18 and waited until she started to school to continue my education).  No one else in my class wanted this job because it “didn’t pay enough” but I needed a job to get off of social services so I took it.  I have been here for 16 years.  In that 16 years it went from a 3 attorney firm to a 5 attorney firm to now a 1 attorney firm.  There was another secretary for the longest time but when it was down to the 2 partners they decided they only needed me (thank god).  Well, a few years ago one of the partners decided he wanted to get out of private practice and get an attorney position that came with a regular paycheck.  So he looked for a job (secretly I might add) and when he did get offered a job he gave his partner 3o day notice that we has leaving.  So for the last few years its been me and him (he subleases one of the empty offices to another attorney who I don’t do any work for, thank god because he doesn’t like me, I’m “not in his class”).  He has been very good to me the last 16 years helping me through personal family issues with my daughter etc.  Now, we come to find out a few months ago his kidneys are failing and he needs a transplant, dialysis etc.    I wish there was something I could do for him and hate the helpless feeling because he’s done so much for me.  He tells everyone he can that comes in (we have a lot of regular clients that know me) about how healthy I eat and go the gym everyday like a proud daddy.  But now, I often wonder how long I will have my job and what I’ll do should the worse happen.  I really don’t want to try to get into another firm because for one I can’t type fast at all, most attorneys are not nice to their staff, and I’m actually kind burned out from having to deal with people’s problems (it’s a general litgation office so we do a little of a lot).  I have however been thinking of getting into personal training especially with people who are extremely overweight.  I absolutely love working out and have learned alot about nutrition etc from just doing research online.  I know I like to help people and I think this may actually be something I could enjoy.  I’ve also thought about working with developmentally disabled children since my grandson possibly has some spectrum of autisim (high functioning) but is making excellent progress since it was caught early and he began going to a special school when he was like 2 or 3.   My grandaughtr too is delayed too (she was 2 weeks premature) but not to the extent that he is.  I guess when the time comes I will have to make a decision as to where my future is going.